Good Morning!

Yesterday at PE class (yes I am a college senior with PE. Don’t ask.) we did ab exercises with that big rubber ball thingy. MAN that thing can start to feel heavy after you’ve been holding it up for 3 minutes. I’m glad to know that my history as an athlete, albeit I haven’t been one for two years now, is proving to be useful. Skinny girls who never had to work out in their lives don’t got nothing on my manly man-crusher thighs, because I had to work out all my life.

Anyway, tonight around 12 hours after the workout, I laughed and my stomach cried. My upper abdomen feels like it’s been punched. Hahaha. This is a good thing though, I keep saying I’m gonna start working out again but I never do. I guess this is the push that I need. The only thing is, now every time I laugh, my abs hurt so much :( Don't make me laugh today, please!

Hullo, world!

Day 2 of thesis film editing, am only 50% done and there's still lighting and scoring to do. Dun dun dun. Tomorrow is the deadline, the deadliest deadline that has been pushed back about three times, which is why the word "thesis" is still being overused in my vocabulary even up to this semester. This Saturday is our defense. I don't even wanna think of the defense first because it's scaring the bejeebus outta me and I gotta concentrate on actually getting the freakin' film done.

But it's aaallll good. This Friday is the Red Horse finals for their film making competition and Jan Parma is one of the finalists! Go to the event and support support support!

Anything other than that, life is pretty good. Busy and tiring, but good. :)

How you doin'?

Now I feel dirty all over.

Okay fine. This will be just like that time I took a chance on the Hannah Montana movie and... actually liked it. I will chalk it up to... ugh whatever. He's hot, okay? It's not like I'd throw my panties at him if he were ever to pass by me randomly on the street.

Oh c'mon mofos, look at that face and tell me who wouldn't want to jump him?

Wassup ladies and gents? Who's up for some trailers? I am!!!!

(I have got to stop spending my Friday nights this way. Ahhh well.)

First up, a movie that came out in 2008 but I have yet to seeeeeee.



Vicky Cristina Barcelona
Yes that is Scarlett Johansson, Penelope Cruz and Javier Bardem in one movie. I don't know if I'm remembering this correctly but one of my friends told me that this is funny? Is it? I don't remember. I partly want to watch it because of my lesbian crush on Scarlett and my hetero crush on Javier. It's like a cookie calling out to me. Geez.



The Ex
I'm not sure if I've posted this already but it's a pretty old movie, I think it came out in 2007. But it's ZACH BRAFF and I can't believe that I haven't seen it. Rawr.

( trailers! come get yr trailers! )



Now, this is the reason that I spent my Friday night indoors, I saw the trailer for New Moon and was actually impressed that I thought that I'd like to see that. Unfortunately, a sequel sucks even more when you haven't seen the first movie, so there ya go. That is the reason I spent my Friday night watching... Twilight. I would rather not talk about it.

p.s.
as long as that werewolf guy keeps his shirt off, I am definitely game with watching the second movie.



This, I believe, is a better version of it. Well, I could be biased.

Anyway, that was a lotta trailers. So now before I go, I'd like to leave you with another video, but of the TV kind. I sure hope you're not hungry right now...

I miss writing full length sentences. I must say, Twitter has a way of taking over yr life if you're not careful. Haha.

The semester has started! Monday was incredibly tiring for a number of reasons. It could be the 5 classes in one day (two theology classes and one is at 7:30am + a philosophy class. say whut!) or it could be the PE. But after a nice ol' massage I was good to go again.

I also finally got to watch 500 Days of Summer!



The Joseph Gordon-Levitt in my head was the JGL in 10 Things I Hate About You, so you can imagine my surprise when he spoke in 500 days of summer and has apparently gone past puberty na. Hahaha. I mean he's older than me but you get what I mean?

Anyway. I really liked it. Not naman super duper love, but I still cried anyway. Yes, I cry at commercials for Pete's sake! It's just... bah basta! My sister got me all curious when she said "watch it, you'll learn something." Ang my golly geewhiz, I did! It's just that there are times when you ask WHY and you never really get an answer so you keep asking WHY until it drives you nuts. So let's just say I got an answer to a why I've been asking for a while. Even if it had to come through a movie, doesn't make it any less meaningful. Kadiri I can't believe I've trying to explain the life lesson I learned from 500 days of summer. Hahaha. Whatevs.

I went kinda crazy and went ahead and copied like 15 gigs worth of movies from Marb. I now have only 6gig left in my less-than-two-months-old laptop. I need an external drive! Aaaanyhoo. I should sleep. Gotta be up bright and early tomorrow!

So if you've spent even just an hour with me after enlistment period was done, I'm sure I've bitched to you about what a horrible schedule I have this sem. It's a great story, too (at least I think) because it seriously runs with my streak of completely bad luck in my short 21 years of life. Bad luck, and irony, that my friend is the theme of my life.

But there are two people who have completely made me see that, well, I need to stfu.

Exhibit A is this: a girl who is double majoring (psych and comm, both quite demanding courses), is more often that not in the Dean's List, is an active member of a veeeery demanding school organization, is done with her thesis, and yet she still has a social life AND is graduating on time. It still renders me speechless when I list it down like that.

Exhibit B is a boy who translated an entire Shakespeare play into Tagalog, and we're talking words I can't even pronounce, when he was seventeen, and is seemingly bound to do many a great things with his life because he is just. so. freakin'. brilliant.

I learned the two things I needed to learn from these two people. 1) There are people who are doing to much more than I am yet they succeed and 2.) Guelan translated Shakespeare when we was 17. What the hell have I done with my life?

These two people are my friends, people I've spent time joking around with and all that stuff. And yet when I look at what they have accomplished, my bitching and moaning seems so stupid and miniscule in comparison. Never mind my 8 semesters of horrid random numbers. Never mind my difficulties with the PE department. And never mind the fact that I start at 7:30AM every day except for Tuesday for the next 4 months. (Okay so maybe that last one is going to be harder to be not pissed off about haha.) I am going to get for myself a little perspective.

I am going to get through this semester because I know that I can do it. I am going to graduate on time and with a minor degree because I can. I am going to be able to wake up at the butt crack of dawn every single day because I am capable of doing it. I AM GOING TO GET THROUGH THIS SEMESTER BECAUSE I BELIEVE THAT I CAN DO IT!

( Now with that said, here is my schedule. Enjoy. )


See ya'll in 4 months suckazzzzz!!!!

There are so many tragedies in life.

Say for instance, a cop who has worked faithfully on the force for 20 years develops an eye disease causing his eyesight to significantly lessen in reliability. Because of this, he commits a mistake that will not only strip him of his credibility, but will make people think that he is a racist and a war-monger.

Racism is such a tricky thing. It's never quite as simple as black and white, but at the same time it shouldn't be that complicated. People are people, good or bad, young and old. The factors that should make us decide how we would judge a human being should be based more on so much more than the color of their skin.

That being said, you gotta admit it's not that easy. What with the antagonization of the Unidentified Black Man, living conditions in the west are not exactly in its prime, and the stereotype of a colored person being either poor or violent or both, you can't blame the general masses to still be somewhat racist, ignorant and staying that way because they are not being informed properly, not being educated the right way.

I am an Asian, but wouldn't fit into the general description of an Asian because Filipinos are of the Malay descent, meaning we look different than our immediate neighbors. I haven't felt that much discrimination mainly because I've never been anywhere outside Southeast Asia. But that's not to say that I haven't been called "just a Filipina" by a european man or I haven't been looked up and down and asked if I speak english (funnily enough, I probably have better grammar and diction than your average American.) But I digress.

My point being is that racism is never a simple thing to deal with, mainly because there are so many factors that attribute to it and with it having such a rich historical background. But I do understand that we have a choice with how we see it: the simple way, or the complicated way. You can choose to keep seeing everyone with their status connected to their color, especially in a country where the White Man is considered a god OR we can choose to judge people around us according to how they treat homeless people or what they feel about guns or how far they think it's okay to take prank, that sort of stuff.

Fil-ams, am-boys, half French, Dutch, Austrian, American, whatever, I don't care. All I care about is the kind of person you are, and the kind of person you inspire others to be.

p.s.
I know this is a poor article about the subject, there's so much more I would love to add, but it's 5am so I think I should go to sleep instead. Haha.

Would you happen to know when my sleeping habits went? I would really like them back, thanks.

So, the semester's over. It's been quite a few months recently, what with two super typhoons, flash floods, Swine Flu, our president doing whatever the hell she wants since she's getting replaced soon anyway, that kind of stuff. It's intense. How are all of youz? I'm fine, our house is fine, it's the first house we've had here in BF that wasn't affected by rain and floods at all. Sobrang, grabe salamat sa Dyos.

I've sorta been spending all my time on Tumblr, just because there's a lotta cool stuff on over there. It's not blogging, it's this newfangled thing called tumblogging (I've actually had this account for well over a year, i just wasn't aware that it wasn't your typical everyday blog. So-ho-rry!) where you basically post stuff that interest you and then people either like it or not or they like it so much that they re-blot it so that it comes out on their pages too. It's like a big, extended version of Twitter. (Now if you don't know what Twitter is, we need to have a talk.)

AHMEGED my brain's all jumbled up. I just watched Nick And Norah's Infinite Playlist.



Painfully late, I know. I just never felt the urge to watch it. Until tonight - well technically this morning because I started watching at around 2am.

Also one last thing before I go collapse:


CONGRATULATIONS TO MARB FOR GETTING ACCEPTED INTO
BERKLEE COLLEGE OF MUSIC! WOOHOO!
*fireworks*
*cartwheels*
*dancing*
*~*sparkles for everyone!*~*

So that's it! Good night, and farewell.

This is Chieri. She is half Japanese. So this is her being Japanese. Whut?

After Ondoy, students of the Ateneo were seen struggling to survive the semester, catching up with requirements even though they were all optional (class standings tend to be low) each of them probably trying to feel better by telling themselves, hey, at least I'm still alive.

Well, at least I was.

God, I've never failed a class in my life. Please don't let this be the first time. :(

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Team Manila stores in Trinoma, Mall of Asia, Jupiter Bel-Air and Rockwell shall be accepting relief goods (Canned Goods, Ready-to-drink Milk, Bottled Water n Clothes) distribution by Veritas to displaced people due to Typhoon Ondoy.

There are too many calls for help. Please go to http://twitter.com/nikkiisaac to check on updates! (My twitter is public temporarily for this reason.)

You can also go to Ateneo's campus (just ask the guard where the college covered courts are) if you want to help out. They need people for clean up committee and transport of the donated goods. We need people who can drive but MORE IMPORTANTLY people who have large vehicles.

I'll be at Assumption College helping out with my sister and Crissy tomorrow before noon. Bring donations to Ateneo or AC or to the places mentioned in the images above.

There's SO MUCH that needs to be done! Now is not the time to be apathetic. Let's go people, let's affect change!!!

I miss watching movies! DVD after DVD, or spending the entire day at the mall just watching all of the new releases. I've missed so many movies that I really looked forward to watching, and there are still so many coming out that I want to watch. Next best thing? TRAILERS! TRAILERS GALORE!

(Also known as "I was waiting for my HIMYM + GG + BBT download, and found my way into YouTube.")

Ellen Page + Drew Barrymore's directorial debut. I've always been fascinated/terrified of the Roller Derby, ever since I first heard of it in this one TV show, I forget which one, when I was a kid. I SUPER wanna try it but know that I'd be too terrified to do anything to daring/painful. Haha. Whatta weenie!

( more more trailers! this is a LOT, you've been warned. )

Not really a fan of the cartoon, but this trailer is too awesome not to be excited about it! I have faith in James Cameron as a director so this should be gooood.

And and and a LOT more. Either they're not embedding-abled or I've just been at this for too long and it's making me miserable. Hahaha. Anyway, if you're still interested, check out the following: "Nine", Alice In Wonderland, and Toy Story 3.

The answer? My Macbook Pro. Why? I waited for it for a year.

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It's strange to think about birthdays when there are so many deaths, some natural but mostly tragic, are happening left and right, affecting everyone around me. When this started about a year ago, I asked my father in an almost desperate way, is it the end of the world or something? Or is it just part of growing up? He said it was the latter.

This is when I realized that for as long as I can remember, my parents have been attending wakes and funerals of people from all sides of their lives. It's scary and humbling to be reminded to vividly that we are all mortal, as invincible as we are able to feel, life is a fragile thing. How carefully are we taking care of ours?

There are a lot of things I care about, a lot of them shallow, some I know are worthwhile. But where do you stand with your life when you're slapped in the face with the Big Picture?

Of friendship? Keep the ones that are true. Of work? Make sure it still brings you joy, no matter how tiring. Of love? If you have someone, make every moment last. If not, love abounds from everywhere. Hope still exists.

Hay. Forgive the word vomit. It's been a tiring past couple of months.

( Entry I never got to post last Tuesday because life is too fast that way! )

I can't sleep. Again.

I've been listening to the soundtrack of Wicked over and over and over again. I've seen a whole bunch of videos, read all the reviews, but it's still not enough. I want to see it. I want to be there as the stage opens up itself to tell me this wonderful story. And I want to be in it. Oh I miss theater so much. Musicals, in particular. They are aaaawful to rehearse, especially if you're not some singing machine, but in the end, I look at what I have accomplished and just want to burst out in song even more! Sigh.

I'm going to the law school tomorrow with Chieri, to ask why the online application process is so bogus. Someone asked me in class today why I'm still applying to law school if I want to take a year off. I said, "if I get into law school without any reviews or months of training, then maybe I actually belong there." Cos that's how the world works, right? Right? Right.



And if all else fails, my childhood dream will always be waiting for me.

I cannot, for the life of me, fall asleep. The roosters are beginning to crow, and they have the right to, it's 4:41 in the morning.

"what do you mean by Efficient Cause?"

I stared at him blankly, how the hell could I not remember? I uhh-ed and ahem-ed and ehehe-ed but nothing, absolutely nada, came to my mind. An efficient cause - the thing that happened to bring about certain results.

According to Facebook, on this day of my life, September 10, 2009, God wants me to know that "You're chasing in the wrong field. What you are looking for is inside of you, not 'out there'. Take a few days off to become quiet and look within, and you will find it."

Go to http://citylightsoundtrack.com, look for the song titled "Lover," download it. Now. Actually, download them all. Then buy the album when it comes out.

I am scared that the principles that I have grown up with and believe in have only led me to think that leaving is always fine.

Sometimes your actions lead me to believe that there's always something you're not telling me, but then I remember all the laughable things that have happened in the last year, and this always reminds me that I have a high tendency to be stupid.

It's 5:03. If it weren't raining, the sun would be peeking through the horizon any time soon.

Damn I love his style. Sigh.


Martin Stranka
I need to make an online portfolio. But 1) I am too lazy and 2) I don't have enough stuff to put in. Geez.

I've applied to Ateneo Law. And as much as it excited me, and as good as it felt after almost a decade of wanting this, I know that deep down inside, I want something else. I want to have the life that I thought I was going to have, to study in Ateneo, to live with my friends, to have a Juris Degree. But I know that it's not going to keep me here forever. I'm still going to want to leave.

Sigh.

Why hello there!

I went photo tripping last Monday at Manila Memorial with a friend. It's in a sad state, what with trash littered everywhere, the monkeys (yes, monkeys) inside are neglected and looked very, very sick. It's a sad world when cute little monkeys aren't even taken cared of.

I've switched to Mac, my parents gave it to me as a late birthday gift! It was an awesome day.

Hello, September.

It's hard and it's awful and it's for the best and it's never going to be the same ever again.

My life has a pattern. Am slowly learning to roll with it.

Yesterday was Benigno Aquino Day. I walked into Starbucks 6750, in my favorite flowery sundress, unbathed but deperately needing my morning coffee fix.

"No work today?" The friendly barista asked.

And for a split second, this is what I was supposed to answer her:

"Oh no, I'm still a student. I do own a production house/artist management body/events business with two of my girlfriends though. We manage 15 boys and it gets like a circus sometimes, but they're all so talented that it's crazy how much we've become their fans at the same time their managers. It gets super hard sometimes, what with the three of us being seniors and having thesis this semester and all, but it's fun and every single time I hear them play live, I'm reminded of the reason why I'm doing this. It's almost like I'm a working student. Well actually, I am a working student, it's just that my boss is myself and Aussy and Ysab and my work hours are flexible but at the same time, round the clock."

(No, seriously, this went through my head in half a second.)

But since I obviously couldn't tell her all that without the man behind me wanting to hit me in the back of the head with a Danish (and, I was on my way home to the south for some much needed R&R) all I did was smile and say,

"No, no work today."

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That was yesterday. I played Plants Vs. Zombies for five hours, then tossed and turned until 5 in the morning. Those damn all-nighters for thesis have surreptitiously messed up my body clock, and now I can't sleep before sunrise.

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Today, it is the official first birthday of Mary Moon Productions. This time last year, we were just a bunch of twenty year-olds fresh out of our teenage years, thinking we knew exactly what the hell we were doing. I wonder what it's gonna feel like next year?


Happy Birthday, my bebez!